Ok, this is my first blog post. Ive been reading them for a few months now thinking Í'd like to write a blog, I have shit to say too!'
So today, I was going through a photo album my mum gave to me on my 21st birthday of all key milestones in my life - from baby to teen years. I was showing my 3 year old what I looked like at her age. Dammit I was cute. Eerily similar to her. But it was the cat photos she put in the back of all my dear kitties - Tiger and Sammy, Gus, Kitty and Harley and it just got me really upset. Memories came flooding back. Seeing the house I grew up in (which they moved out of 9 years ago) and my old bedroom and the fluffy toys I still had on my bed at 19, my CD stacker, trinkets and doona covers. All I could think was, how have I gone from there to here! Im 35 and I still feel 21 again. It was all so familiar.
Mind you, I met my husband at 19, bought our house by 22 and had our first baby at 25. Three kids and another house later and all this time that has passed, yet I just sometimes wish I could go back to being that teen with no worries that was cared for and spoiled by my wonderful mum and dad!
One thing is for sure. Life is not what I expected. But at the same time I didnt have much expectation except that Id get married and have 3 babies.
Life can be tough. Money, mortgages and bills suck but the love and laughter in our house makes it all worthwhile. I wonder if I would change things but if that meant not having my family, the answer would be a big fat no. Id rather live week to week with them than be a high-flying, single, thirty-something executive with my lap dog waiting in my shoe box apartment each night!
I tried going back to work and did so for nearly 2 years but gave it up so we could all be together. Its no fun being at work till 10pm while my kids and hubby spend evenings without me. Hubby is a trucker now so is away a couple of nights a week but hey, the money is good and it allows me to be the mum I love to be.
So although I miss my youth, Im happy to have all those memories. Plus I have 2 more cats to fuss over.
